and a few years of looking for God in what he called “wondering in the wilderness” that he began his 40 years of monastery service as cook and sandal maker. He was described as amazingly selfless and a “...gentle man of joyful spirit...”. who “...continually walked with God...not from the head but from the heart...” Doing long hours of selfless work with such painful disabilities, how was it that he maintained his joyful, loving and calm contact with God and his fellow man? How did he do it? | found that, as with all miracles of God contact for me, it happened by itself. | suffered my first testicular cancer in my thirties. | felt the little hard rock by accident while scratching. It was on the left side. Surgical removal was followed by a five-hour radical abdominal lymph node dissection that left me with incidental abdominal sympathetic nerve damage, urinary hesitancy and ejaculating backwards into my bladder. The tissue diagnosis was of embryonic cell carcinoma with chorionic elements. The U.S. Armed Service Pathology Department’s statistical book gave me 5% chance of living beyond two years. My second testicular cancer occurred in my fifties and on the right, two little joined lumps found by my wife. It was a seminoma with cure rate of 85% but requiring four weeks of almost daily x- ray treatment. The combination of radiation induced blood vessel scarring (they had to blast widely since my earlier lymph node dissection confused the usual radiological anatomy), a pre-existing laterally curved spinal column and the arthritic changes resulting from fifteen years of running over 10 miles per day with this kind of back led eventually to the degeneration and collapse of several of the bodies of my vertebrate pinching several leg nerves between bone spurs and radiation- induced scarring. | have been in increasingly severe back and leg pain for fifteen years. It was in this way that | fell heir to both Brother Lawrence pain syndrome and what | now think was his strong