Andrew Carnegie famously called the dignity of real work. Spicy one dish vegetarian meals, twice a day meditation and brief stolen naps consumed the rest of the day. | found myself meditating for longer and longer times, chasing the promised Blue Pearl that Baba said appeared behind the eyes near the supreme meditative end point. Beside care with the _ titration of meditation-induced interpersonal disconnection, detachment with love is the desired end point of most Hindu and Buddhist meditative practice, another set of “side effects” of the energy arising early in the course of too much meditation is called kriyas, spontaneous episodes of involuntary behaviors and postures of the body such as unprovoked chanting and writhing and stereotyped hand positions called mudras. Baba told us one of his kriyas took the form of spontaneous erections that occurred during his first experiences with deep meditative states. | recall a woman physician and fellow ashramite in Los Angeles telling me that her panties often got so soaked during meditation that she worried about being stuck to her cushion. Beyond these initial somatic overflows of Divine Energy, shakti, emerges a vision of the Blue Pear, bindu, Baba’s “gift from the Goddess Kundalini.” As he entered this stage, he said that his mind filled with “joyous contentment.” Jewish mysticism of the 1300’s acknowledged the neighborhood relations of Eros and the Sacred. More formal and scientific uses of the word, energy, like all objects of thought embeddable in a mathematical context, are abstract and relational. In his book, Mathematics-The Music of Reason, Jean Dieudonne’ treats mathematical objects as objects of thought. Dieudonne”s book documents the 19'" Century transition from concrete, visualizable, classical mathematics to abstract, nonvisualizable relational ideas. This conceptual transition to abstract, relational thought objects that are no longer representable by pictures or accessible to our senses of mathematics