To: 'eevacation mail.conteevacation©gmail.com]; Jeffrey Epsteinbeevacation©gmail.com] From: Sent: un 5:59:13 PM Subject: Re: honestly jeffrey my perspective on you and I and what was possible was always different from yours I think. From the chime of your email, I take that you wanted me to develop a career for myself that would lead me to independence. I'd put it that I wanted to develop my self and from that establish a position , do something of value, something that brought value to others. On the contrary, you always told me there was a short cut to success and that I shouldn't ever work for anyone other than you, that it didn't make sense. This was the dominant thesis for the better part of ten years. And though with initial resistance, a resistance that is once again fundamental , i took on and advocated your template of thought. My perspective came from that of a woman who quite simply was in love with you and saw you as that type of partner, not as a prize in need of buying, something much more real and simple. In my eyes, and the eyes of many others you took my maidenhood and in exchange for that there was some contribution on your pan to assist me in cultivating the greater part of my life. A different kind of humaneness is invoked I suppose. I may well be completely wrong with this, but in the spirit of abject honesty, to be quite frank, I don't think your antics serve you and I never wholeheartedly did. It is ironic that you eulogize those that support it and contribute to it, but on your most intimate level , a place that I'd venture to say, I may well have touched, I think it leaves you feeling depleted. Balance and equilibirim in life is essential for wholeness and the move in Paris, though I remain sorry for any behavior on my part that engendered negativity, aniliated that sense. To have it yes, no doubt, you need it but I think you also need a caring that is different from that which you perpetually seek, both pleasure