To: Jan Deus • John Demartini ; John Gunderso Jeffrey Epstein eeyacation gmai .com] From: Francis Jardine-Deuss Sent: Sun 7/21/2013 6:07:03 AM Subject: Fw: Dear John... Francis Jardine-Deuss ent rom my acc erry Original Message From: "Francis Jardine-Deuss" Date: Sun, 21 Jul 2013 06:05:23 To: John Demartini Reply-To: Hello Dr Demartini I have had a lot on my mind and trying to process what needs to be dealt with in order of importance, so as to leave me functioning in a healthy manner, has been a challenge. I want to live life in an inspiring, free state of well being and wish that for all those in life as well. I feel like the space I'm in...doing work on cleaning up my life, reflecting on what has contributed to this point has left me and others in a space of a period of pause with regards to how to perceive my questions, statements, correspondence and interactions. The speculation based on a perceived history that was created as a result of not having an internal heading has caused much volatility in my life. Trying to suppress the inadequacies I've experienced on my journey through life has left me with very little in terms of who I really am. I am only now beginning with a waking up process to the reality that everything is pointing to the perception that I can't and don't have the ability to fully comprehend the gravity of my real situation, that my choices have not been my own and that I have been run by people who have participated in my life trying to glean from my actions what the best situation would be for me and if I look back at my life I realise that it lacked coherency and congruency in terms of the way a disciplined, directed mind would work. I have had an internal communion with the forces at play in the universe and realise that the way I was trying to nurture myself was not based on what the real divine order of life would be handing out. I am left in a broken down shell knowing that I need to change th