From: "jeffrey E." <[email protected]> To: Subject: Re: Date: Fri, 10 Mar 2017 09:28:25 +0000 I'm sending you some money to smooth your journey . I wish you all the best. Good luck On Thu, Mar 9, 2017 at 8:36 PM wrote: First of all, I am really sorry and I apologize if at times I didn't manage to show how grateful I am for everything you have done for me. I apologize for my mistakes, my bratish behavior and if I haven't followed the right directions. Even if you don't see it that way, I haven't taken your help for granted, I know it is extraordinary and I will always feel indebted to you in some way, no matter what happens now. I understand you being angry and disappointed at me, I won't try to make excuses for myself, I only want you to see things from my perspective and maybe get a bit of what's going on. I am deeply frustrated for not being able to choose a life path and build a stable future for myself. It's part of my personality to escape from things and blame outside circumstances, but deep inside I know the problems are in my head. There is a huge range of possibilities ahead of me, and I realise I am lucky to be in a relatively good position to pursue any of them, but I get dizzy, scared, confused and in the end I'm somehow incapable of taking real steps into one of them. This year I have been working harder, I'm trying to manage my image more efficiently and I really did my best when interning for Alija, but my mental blockage is still there and I can't really see a way out of it. I know you have given me directions, but I needed closer guidance and support. I am not saying you owed it to me -you have done more than enough!-, or that your directions weren't good, but maybe I'm not as strong or as smart as you are to succeed in life by myself, at least at this first stage. No one has the right to expect this from anyone, and as I said your monetary support is extraordinary. Whenever I've acted childishly or rebellious (I have trou