From: "Jeffrey E." <[email protected]> To: Subject: Re: Date: Tue, 10 Oct 2017 09:36:57 +0000 hying to dirty me and the past is not i believe a helpful way for you to move forward. arrangments are pay for sex. . period . not for months of school, advice, travel on your own to school, no sex no payments . not listening for hours to opinions. guidance , long term pay for sex. . as you should recall there was nosex , but plenty of advice. all ignored. when you reazlie what friendship means. and the role you play in destroying any hope of one. you might begin to grow. lying to friends is worse than family, somoen made a choice to be a friend it wasnt genetic. im confident you will find a way to clarity.. it wont be easy. but you can only get there in mu opion with being honest WITH YOURSELF. . good luck . please do not respond , On Mon, Oct 9, 2017 at 7:39 PM, > wrote: Now that I understood the term "arrangement" and read a few articles about it I understand the dynamics of what you were truly doing and what I represented for you. You were just one of those disgusting man who needs to pay girls in order to have company and sex out of of their lonely life. I didn't know there were so many people just like you, doing the same exact things. I'm in shock. It looks like a big theater were everyone is playing a role and nothing is real. Not even our friendship was. I was just living an illusion unconscious about what was going on. You pretended to be my friend/lover and manipulated me the whole time. You used me and then abandoned me, treating me like meat. I guess this is how this dangerous game works that costed me a lot psychologically, emotionally and not only. Real friends don't act this way and friendship is NOT a deal. Honestly I would have preferred not to see all this and know any of it, staying in my idealized world. I would have been much happier I think It's so crazy how your perception of life changes when you start to acknowledge thi