From: To: jeffrey E. <[email protected]> Subject: Re: Date: Mon, 06 Jul 2015 11:17:02 +0000 Importance: normal I know Jeffrey and believe me, I'm focusing on it as crazy.... cannot stop thinking about it every day, having nothing else in my head only one thought-how the hell to succeed and finally start being financially independent and being able to live on my own. It's really a very hard time for me, so much pressure and uncertainty.. please understand me... I feel really miserable.. Original Message From: jeffrey E. Sent: 6 Jul 2015 11:05:03 GMT To: Subject: Re: I will help you anyway i can . I want you however to focus on real life On Mon, Jul 6, 2015 at 1:01 PM, > wrote: You are right, happiness doesn't pay rent.. But what should I do?? Quit violin and start studying again in order to get another profession which would probably make it easier (or not) in getting job? Or maybe I shouldn't waste my time for studies and just start working in a restaurant like Jenn? Original Message----- From: jeffrey E. Sent: 6 Jul 2015 10:54:51 GMT To: Subject: Re: being happy , is not importatn when someone has to pay their rent. thats what acoloholcs say, . I cant pay the rent but i feel good. you are now an adult. On Mon, Jul 6, 2015 at 12:52 PM, > wrote: I still have to find the way for that.. it's not easy... I wish I had a profession that makes it much easier to earn money.. unfortunately my profession is not like that unless you are someone like Joshua Bell or Anne- Sophie Mutter....you are right, I have to think about real life and I understand it completely when you say you are concerned about my future.. I can assure you that I can't stop thinking about it as well! I have my head filled with million thoughts and I'm just going crazy!! I can hardly fall asleep at night, trying to come up with an idea of how to be successful in what I'm doing.. but at least I really love what I do and playing music makes me happy.. music is all I hav