From: Lesley Groff <MIMIII > To: Paula Garrity <1=IMMII > Subject: Re: Your Message...lots of stuff! Date: Tue, 16 Dec 2014 01:47:57 +0000 Xoxoxoxoxox We need to talk about all this! I will come tomorrow to you while II at wrestling! Why not! And let's walk Thursday :) Sent from my iPhone On Dec 15, 2014, at 5:19 PM, Paula Garrity < > wrote: > Oh gosh...this email made me ball. I just can't shake this. I thought by telling you it would make me feel better.... instead it is actually worse...it is more real, more certain and just outright sad. I was chatting with Romy last night and she even said that she thinks it is so hard to find good friends...it hit my hard as I totally agree with her. I also realized this weekend that although I have other very dear friends here it is not the same as my relationship with you. It is just not. I do agree that it is because our lives are so similar and it has worked so well. I can't imagine this scenario ever happening again. I have rehashed so many things in my head over the past two months...watching getting ready to go to college and seeing him with his same set of best friends since they were in 3rd grade. Us winning the football championship, us going out for our birthdays, us drinking the same wine and loving just sitting next to each other at every opportunity. It is just sad and it makes me have a sort of resentment towards Pat; although I know this is how it needs to be it just makes me mad and sad at the same time. Then there are other days when I say to myself...everyone moves, many people don't have jobs, money and love...we have all that and so I need to just buck up and move forward. The only conclusion I can make is to enjoy our time together while not worrying about actually growing closer before we are separated and then planning our times to see each other after. I don't know what else to do...I never have problems sleeping and for about a month now I can't sleep...even on nights when